About Me:

Hi!  My name is Tammy.  I am a 45 y/o married mom of 2….a 25 y/o man, and a 19 y/o girl..Who are the most amazing people! I’m not speaking just as a mom…they truly are amazing, they have big hearts, they don’t drink, smoke or do drugs or behave recklessly, they have a wonderful sense of humor and are just good people! I’m also a grandma (MeeMaw) to twin girls just born in may 2013!! and have been a MeeMaw to two wonderful boys who are 6 and 10 for the past 4 years or so…I love them all dearly and equal! We also have .a Black Lab named Lucy Lou and a Yorkie Chon named Daisy Duke and a terrier mix named Sasha Sue! And a kitty named Josie Joe. I have the most  supportive hubby named Jim.He has had to do waaay more than a normal husband should have to do for his wife and he does it without complaint…well not much anyway…lol. I have  A crazy family whom I love dearly. A few close friends, and unfortunately  deteriorating health issues which include but are not limited to: Severe abdominal cavity adhesions/scar tissue (caused after a doc perforated my bowel during ovary removal and didn’t note it, I ended up in ICU on a vent in a coma, septic, had around 16 repair surgeries over the next year in hospital, ostomies, some of bowel removed, all that allowed me to stay alive, but with daily and unfixable pain and no muscle wall, with a giant ventral hernia),  IBS, Short Gut Syndrome, Fibromyalgia/Lupus, Antiphospholipid Syndrome, Osteoarthritis, Degenerative Disk Disease, Anxiety, Tendinitis of both elbows, a foot that never healed properly from a break last year  and bad teeth! 😀  Yes, hard to believe ALL that is wrong with one person! It’s the belly though that has cost me to live in my bed 90% of the time, because the pain is unbearable, even with pain meds it’s only taken down to about a 5 or 6 on a good day…and God forbid I sneeze, cough or laugh! Bending over, walking to far or standing too long are also triggers for the adhesion demon. My life will never be the same. I can’t even eat the same. I try to keep faith though, and I try to focus on the positives in my life and the beauty in the world. It helps for me to vent on here and to the other wonderful people I have found online who know what it’s like to want so much to be normal but because of the daily pain we feel we are not. For me it’s a strange feeling to want to live so bad, yet hear yourself begging to die during the worst of the pain. I do love to write although my grammar and or spelling and talent can be called into question at times!  I adore reading!  I worry obsessively about my chlildren and other things too.  I like to clean and hate chaos.  I love movies and music. I love seafood, Chinese Food and Mexican Food (when I could eat normally).   I would be lost without the net because I love to research so many things!  I love to laugh…my sense of humor has kept me going in life. I get cranky when I am hot and sweaty…which happens alot lately!  I’m afraid of heights and the dentist.  I love writing, reading, movies, music, animals and children!  I will be blogging about whatever comes to mind.  If people read it and get something from it, that would be awesome!  If no one reads it but me…it’s good therapy for me!

That’ll do for now! 😉

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  1. I just read your blog because you asked on Facebook. I know I will be keeping up with it. You are a very gifted writer.

    • Thank you very much for the compliment Cheryl! You have no idea how much it means to me! I honestly have always loved writing, and doing this blog is really awesome for me. Thanks again, and I hope you do subscribe and keep up with my blog! Also, feel free to let your friends know about it as well! 😉

  2. Oh my goodness…my heart is breaking for you…my, it’s so funny, how sometimes you write and you feel no one is getting this at all, then you meet someone that says…been there, done that 🙂 I swear to you, before 2008, I had no idea about any stomach/digestive issues…then BAM! It’s so frustrating to try to research and you come up with nada…I so hope that more and more people come out f the woodwork…so we can get the research that we deserve! Thank you for the great comment, and I am happy to meet you…will be subscribing to you so I can keep up with yo ass…(ha ha…ass is so funny when you can’t poo, huh…lol) anyway, I hope you have a good Thanksgiving Tummy Day….stay positive 🙂 Be strong 🙂

    • Thank you for reading me…and my stories that are “all out there”…I’m not shy about bodily functions at all….it is what it is…we all do it…well, until we can’t …right? lol I remember years ago being a nurse in a nursing home and all the little old ladies discussing their bowel situations…and I thought, “wow” hope I’m not obsessed with the ole poop shoot when I’m old”…well, guess what, I’m only 44 and I’m beyond obessed with my poop shoot, cuz it’s defective, thanks to a doctor who failed to note a huge hole in my intestine after he ripped out my ovaries…oops! So now pooping is on my mind all the time, did I take my Mirilax 3x’s today? Did I take my Colace 2x’s today? Did I take my Lactulose once or twice today? Did I take my acidophylis today? Did I take my Cod Liver Oil today? Did I do a suppossitory today? Just to get a half way decent evacuation once or twice per month. That’s what it takes, Do I have bowel cancer…well now they can’t do a colonoscopy or endoscope because my pipes are so twisted and scarred and misplaced, its too dangerous to perhaps cause another perforation…so, I’m stuck to figure it all out myself…I did go today and got some baby foods….rice milk…broths…ensure…donuts…vitamins…gatorade…tuna…chicken breast…white rice…noodles…this is a learning experience and no medical quack is helpin me…some of them, I just don’t know how they graduated. I went to nursing school…got my degree…but it seems standards have fallen. I’m not bragging, but I swear to God I know more than 80% of these medical professionals. It’s scary, because my life…i in MY hands. All I do is research my issues and read of others plights…its absured, there are many of us and we are being shut out, becuase they don’t know what to do. If they can’t fix it and put it down real pretty and neat on paper then we are a problem..and they do not want problems. They want neat little packages they can put away and add to their experience. Assholes. But…it Officially Thanksgiving…so Happy Turkey Day to all that celebrate..and be thankful for what we do have and what we can eat and the occassional poo our bodies are able to push out on its own…with a little help…that’s what I’m grateful for today….got one to make an appearance! Woo Woo!
      Thanks for reading…our crazy colons have found a way for us to find each other..and I am thankful for that, as you are really similar to me, and you seem to be living…not always easy…but we do what we gotta do, don’t we? Whats the alternative?
      T

  3. Nice to meet you, virtually, thanks for your comment and alerting me to your blog. Chronic pain is a constant cloud over every day, on a good day. I am sorry that is your truth. Funny thing for me, my increasingly chronic hip/knee joint pain was disappeared overnight when I started my latest chemo. For some reason that amuses me. It was so magical and ironic. Good luck finding some magic and enduring well despite the pain. Warmly,
    Marcy Westerling
    http://livinglydying.com/

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