Hi! My name is Tammy. I am a 45 y/o married mom of 2….a 25 y/o man, and a 19 y/o girl..Who are the most amazing people! I’m not speaking just as a mom…they truly are amazing, they have big hearts, they don’t drink, smoke or do drugs or behave recklessly, they have a wonderful sense of humor and are just good people! I’m also a grandma (MeeMaw) to twin girls just born in may 2013!! and have been a MeeMaw to two wonderful boys who are 6 and 10 for the past 4 years or so…I love them all dearly and equal! We also have .a Black Lab named Lucy Lou and a Yorkie Chon named Daisy Duke and a terrier mix named Sasha Sue! And a kitty named Josie Joe. I have the most supportive hubby named Jim.He has had to do waaay more than a normal husband should have to do for his wife and he does it without complaint…well not much anyway…lol. I have A crazy family whom I love dearly. A few close friends, and unfortunately deteriorating health issues which include but are not limited to: Severe abdominal cavity adhesions/scar tissue (caused after a doc perforated my bowel during ovary removal and didn’t note it, I ended up in ICU on a vent in a coma, septic, had around 16 repair surgeries over the next year in hospital, ostomies, some of bowel removed, all that allowed me to stay alive, but with daily and unfixable pain and no muscle wall, with a giant ventral hernia), IBS, Short Gut Syndrome, Fibromyalgia/Lupus, Antiphospholipid Syndrome, Osteoarthritis, Degenerative Disk Disease, Anxiety, Tendinitis of both elbows, a foot that never healed properly from a break last year and bad teeth! 😀 Yes, hard to believe ALL that is wrong with one person! It’s the belly though that has cost me to live in my bed 90% of the time, because the pain is unbearable, even with pain meds it’s only taken down to about a 5 or 6 on a good day…and God forbid I sneeze, cough or laugh! Bending over, walking to far or standing too long are also triggers for the adhesion demon. My life will never be the same. I can’t even eat the same. I try to keep faith though, and I try to focus on the positives in my life and the beauty in the world. It helps for me to vent on here and to the other wonderful people I have found online who know what it’s like to want so much to be normal but because of the daily pain we feel we are not. For me it’s a strange feeling to want to live so bad, yet hear yourself begging to die during the worst of the pain. I do love to write although my grammar and or spelling and talent can be called into question at times! I adore reading! I worry obsessively about my chlildren and other things too. I like to clean and hate chaos. I love movies and music. I love seafood, Chinese Food and Mexican Food (when I could eat normally). I would be lost without the net because I love to research so many things! I love to laugh…my sense of humor has kept me going in life. I get cranky when I am hot and sweaty…which happens alot lately! I’m afraid of heights and the dentist. I love writing, reading, movies, music, animals and children! I will be blogging about whatever comes to mind. If people read it and get something from it, that would be awesome! If no one reads it but me…it’s good therapy for me!
That’ll do for now! 😉